Insomnia sucks.

   

     Gets you thinking about things that you end up thinking waaaayy too deeply about and as a result you can’t get to sleep because you can’t stop thinking and then you think about how you should stop thinking and as a result you end up thinking more. And then it gets you mildly depressed about stuff and then you start thinking about how things are mildly depressing and yeah.

Do you feel like The Ugly Duckling?

         
      Is it normal to feel no sense of belonging? I can't help feeling that I don't belong anywhere. I've been up rooted my whole life, if you knew all about me you’d probably tell me to shut up my life is fine and wonder what my problem is – and I completely agree with you. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Don't know I felt the same way since I was a little kid. I feel isolated and sad. Everybody seems to fit in but me. You want to belong, but whatever you do, a little something’s not right. If people around don’t reject you, you reject yourself to escape the heavy feeling of disconnection. I just feel that I rushed things about coming back to earth between lives, and ended up in the wrong family. My Abah, to whom I was very close, died in 2006, and ever since, I have had no connection to my family. It is as if he was the only reason I was accepted at all. Am I the only one thinking this ... or ? Depressed.